Making big decisions part 2

Updated: Apr 16, 2021

Hi all,

Welcome to part 2 of my series about making big decisions in life. And let me tell you that this was one of the hardest, scariest, and yet the BEST move I have made so far in my life.

What is it? Read on to find out.

The last 6 years I have spent in the field of IT. I did my bachelor of 4 years in Information and communication technology and then went off to work as a project manager in a software company. There is nothing wrong with doing all that. Also, yey! that I had the opportunity to go to uni and find a job while still finishing my study. I understand my privilege for getting that far and having succeeded in getting a bachelor's degree and stable employment.

But (yes, there is a but) this was not happiness for me. I was pretending to be something I am not, pretending to like something I didn't and pretend I was interested in something I wasn't. It was so embedded in me that it took me about 5 years to start noticing it and another 1 year to start doing something about it.

I had this inner irk that was trying to tell me I did not belong in the IT field. But due to environmental factors such as stability, finances, opportunities to develop in the corporate field, influence from people, I was bearing it and telling myself that there is no perfect world and perfect work. But let me tell you....imperfect doesn't mean torture, depression, and overall unhappiness.

We live in a world where everyone and everything is aiming to be fast, SMART, structured, results, and detail-oriented. This is a philosophy of kings, emperors, and conquerors. It is from times where feelings could get you killed and people could starve to death if you were soft.